blast from the past

Unlike me.

2012-02-02T16:07:00.001Z

This is very unlike me but check this out anyway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOREkPq1aVQ

random

2012-02-02T15:55:00.000Z

I know it has been a while.

There are many times when I randomly have the impulse to write. And to just keep on writing. It it how I have kept my sanity for so many years. Lately, I have not been writing much. It is indeed a sad thing. Regardless of whether I end up sharing my thoughts or not, writing provided me with an outlet, a positive method to channel my emotions and to help me figure my thoughts out.

Not writing has resulted in so many terrible decisions. This is no exaggeration, I can assure you. Thus, I've decided to actually make it a point to write. To help me re-cultivate this habit, I'm going to carry a pen and a piece of paper every where I go.

I have a lot on my mind but none of which I am ready to share or put into words.

Till next time.

A not-so-confused Malaysian.

2011-06-07T11:48:00.003+01:00

I have been relaxing, not doing much after my final exams of my degree. It feels like I have not much to worry about. Then, I woke up this morning and I read an article on the Internet. On The Malaysian Insider, to be precise (click here to read it). And boy was I disheartened. Yes, the writer is merely expressing his view, his opinion but I still felt like it was a blow to my dreams that one day, the people of Malaysia will be free to pursue their dreams and ambitions with no race or religious barriers.

I went to a Convent school and I had friends from all races. To be honest, we never really noticed the difference. That is, until it came to the time when we had to enter a debate competition and the teacher told us that only two of us will get a place on the team and the other debater has to be a Malay girl. We were puzzled and being the inquisitive students that we were, we asked our teacher why? She said, "That is just how things work, that is the rule". Rule? What rule? Why must it be compulsory to have one Malay in an English debate team but no rule that a non-malay has to be on the Bahasa Melayu debate team? As we moved up the forms, the preferential treatment became more and more prevalent. For example, there must always be a Malay student in the top two positions on the prefects board. How come this privilege does not extend to the non-Malays? Let us not delve into the issue of transparency when scholarships are given out.

The writer says that since young, he has been taught that in the Muslim religion, one should spread the beauty of the religion. I have nothing against that at all for I believe, all religion is beautiful but it is the people who practise them that taint it. Again, I ask, with all the so-called speech of freedom of religion, how is it that one is allowed to convert into the Muslim religion but converting out is hell? These are some of the questions I have had for so many years and I have yet to be given a satisfactory answer. At the same time, I do not believe that people of other races should be given an advantage. I think we should all be treated equally.

I was rather taken aback when I read that the writer believes that Malaysia should be led by not only a Bumiputera but a Muslim Bumiputera. I suppose, I have no right to question his opinion as it is his own. So, I will share my personal opinion here. I beg to differ. I yearn for the day when Malaysia will be matured enough to accept that it does not matter what gender, race or religion one is, as long as the person is qualified, has Malaysia's best interest at heart and most importantly is MALAYSIAN to lead this beautiful country.

I want to take a step forward in realising that dream. I am not Malaysian Indian, Malaysian Chinese, Malaysian Sikh, Malaysian Malay, etc. I am Malaysian and nothing else. Just saying.

Wishful thinking.

2011-05-21T19:41:00.000+01:00

If they don't know how to value you, let them go. It is much better to lose someone who doesn't care about you compared to feeling stupid all the time for even caring in the first place.

A wise man once said, “You can have anything in life, if you will sacrifice everything else for it.” What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. So, before you go into battle, you better decide how much you’re willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good, means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in, means abandoning the walls you’ve spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming. When we don’t have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.

Sometimes we feel like nothing we give is ever enough. Sometimes we feel like the end does not justify the means. Sometimes we simply ask the question, why?

We all wish to be loved, to be cared for, to be wanted, to mean something to someone.

Maybe we should stop wishing and actually do something to make it happen. We all have choices. It is just the matter of making the right ones.

ramblings.

2011-05-21T19:36:00.000+01:00

Here I am on the sofa, staring at my notes but who am I kidding? Nothing is actually going in. My headphones are on and Adele's Someone Like You is playing. As I sing along to the words in my head, I sense a whirlpool of emotions. A whirlpool so strong that I cannot help but be sucked in. And I reflect.

Why am I here? What got me to where I am today? What if I had made different choices? What if I had known then what I know now? Would I have done the same things over again? Would I have made the same choices?

The choices I made then have moulded the person I am now. My strengths, my weaknesses, the lessons I have learnt, the people I have lost, the ones I have gained, etc..

I am afraid of what the future holds but at the same time, I am excited. I want to achieve things. I want to surprise people, surprise myself. I want to see how far I can push the boundaries. How far I can go.

One of my biggest fears? The fear of being forgotten. I want to be somebody. Not necessarily someone important to the world but I want to be important to the people that matter. The people that matter to me. I am lucky for I have such amazing role models to look up to. People who have impacted me in a positive manner. As for the ones who have hurt me, I have learnt not to do to anyone else, what they have done to me. I have made horrid mistakes myself. I saw the hurt I caused. And I have since been working towards never repeating such things again.

We grow and learn every single day of our lives. We learn from our own mistakes as well as from our observations. I know that I am not the same person I was a couple of years ago. That is normal and is to be expected. I hope that the change has been a good one. I hope that it is for the better.

I wish nothing but the best for everyone out there. We're all struggling to survive. We live but only once. Let's fill it with laughter, joy and wonderful memories. Let us not dwell on the bad but instead spread happy thoughts. As sappy and clichéd as it sounds, it is true.

It is during our darkest hours that we must reach deep within us and find the strength to pull through. Not only for ourselves but also for the people who we care about and the ones who love us.

I refuse to allow myself to wallow in sadness. I know that this is such a sombre entry but I needed an outlet to vent. To put my thoughts into words. I will be honest, this was not what I had planned to write initially but I have reservations about opening up so much, hence this entry. You understand, don't you? :)

Just a thought.

2011-01-25T20:28:00.002Z

When you build walls, the thicker the better. That way, you don't get hurt. :)

Cuando Me Enamoro

2011-01-17T19:15:00.002Z

For you:

When I'm Falling In Love

If I could get star from sky for you
I would do it twice
And only because I love you
I would reach to any planet

And If feeling be broken
I would become sailer near with island of your desires
Your desires

But inside of myself
I understand that I can't do it
And sometimes I lose myself

When I'm falling in love
Sometimes I'm despair, when I'm falling in love
When I least expect it, I'm falling in love
Time stops
And soul comes to my body
I smiling, when I falling in love

If moon be your award
I swear, I'd do everything to get it
And be yours

If you hear my cries in your dreams
Wake up, it's reality
It's not dream, not
And I glad that always come moment...

When I'm falling in love
Sometimes I'm despair, when I'm falling in love
When I least expect it, I'm falling in love
Time stops
And soul comes to my body
I smiling, when I falling in love

The thought of this made me smile.

2011-01-12T07:07:00.000Z

And I want to hold your hand in mine as we stroll along the beach in our flipflops.

Talking, laughing and giggling.

We walk as we watch the sunset.

I'd like that.

two friends of mine.

2010-12-05T16:01:00.000Z

I miss you, Julia.

I miss you, Mae.

I miss you both.

Know that you're always on my mind.

Never too far away.

That's how special you both are to me.

=)

2010-12-03T10:47:00.002Z

:)

2010-11-30T22:26:00.002Z

Compose

I miss my other best friend. Have not spoken to him in a while. :(

:D

2010-11-30T21:26:00.000Z

The paradox of our time..

2010-11-30T17:43:00.002Z

The paradox of our time in history is that.....

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers;

Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less;

We buy more, but enjoy less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families;

More conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense;

More knowledge, but less judgment;

More experts, yet more problems;

More medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,

Drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.

We conquered outer space but not inner space.

We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.

We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less.

We plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion;

Big men and small character;

Steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce; fancier houses but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

by Dr. Bob Moorehead

inspired by a poem by the Dalai Lama that reads as follows:

We have bigger houses but smaller families;

More conveniences, but less time;

We have more degrees, but less sense;

More knowledge, but less judgment;

More experts, but more problems;

More medicines, but less healthiness;

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.

We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever but have less communication.

We have become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are times of fast foods but slow digestion;

Tall man but short character;

Steep profits but shallow relationships.

It's a time when there is much in the window, but nothing in the room..

Makes sense, no?

Christmas in a cup.

2010-11-27T11:06:00.000Z

One of the best things I've had since coming to the UK. Perfect when consumed during the winter. :)

S.N.O.W : 26th November 2010

2010-11-27T00:56:00.000Z

And it finally snowed in Cardiff! It was beautiful. Yes, it is not the first time for me but I still get excited! Haha. You can't blame me, to be honest. It's SO PRETTY! Haha.

Anyways, my day went well. Did some work, played in some snow, had a meeting, good dinner and to top it all off, it was a great night in with the girls! Carrie, Pearl, Maruva, Christine and I watched Devil Wears Prada. After that, Raj and Zareen joined us as Carrie, Pearl and Maruva then left. The four of us just sat and talked for almost 2 hours. It was great fun. The perfect night in, I would say.

All in all, a good start and a good end to the day. I wish for more days like this. Looking forward to tomorrow. I hope everything goes well.

*cross fingers*

*winks*

;)

Christmas present.

2010-11-22T21:34:00.000Z

This is my official new favourite Christmas present for 2010 =)

http://uk.blackberry.com/devices/blackberrybold/

The difference between this (Blackberry bold 9780) and the previous Blackberry Bold 9700 is that this one has 3g.

Now, which kind soul would like to get me this as my present for Christmas?? =)

With time.

2010-11-22T21:29:00.003Z

If you've read my previous post, you'd know that I visited Aberystwyth two weeks ago. Yeah, I'd been there before. But this time, it was not just another trip for me. This time, it was different.

Memories came flooding back to mind as the bus lulled along the country roads, heading to its final destination for this particular journey. I tried to block them out but it seemed as though they just came shooting at me, one after the other.

Every step I took from then on up until the moment I left reminded me of everything that happened over the last semester. It reminded me of things I was trying so very hard to forget. This place holds many secrets. It knows too much. Many bad things happened here last year. Almost wiping out all the good ones. In fact, thinking of the good ones actually links back to the negative feelings that override them.

Nonetheless, my friends made the trip worthwhile. I will need more strength before I step foot in that place again but I will. I did not realise it was going to be this hard. I overestimated my emotional strength. The chain of events the past few months starting March have severely weakened me.

What I have written here is just the trip of the iceberg. I'll need time to regroup. But I will heal. With time.

I hope..

Aberystwyth!

2010-11-22T21:21:00.001Z

I went to Aberystwyth last weekend (13-15th of November) for work as well as to visit my friends. The place is still as beautiful as I remembered it to be.

Jacket potato with tuna mayo and cheese from TaMed Da

Look at the clouds!

Seagull

Seafront

The pier

Deb and me

Constitutional Hill

Seafront

The gang all set for dinner

Nash, Narvin, Deb, Zaena and Shanker were very welcoming. Narvin cooked an amazing meal as well!

Dhal

I cooked stir-fry brocolli

Prawn and potato sambal

Chocolate fudge cake from Iceland as desert along with payasam

All in all, it was a good trip and I will be back soon. Thank you for your hospitality, guys. Do come visit me soon in Cardiff! =)

present for me?

2010-09-28T11:22:00.001+01:00

I WANT THISSSSSSS!!! :(

pain?

2010-09-27T16:14:00.001+01:00

Pain. A fairly ambiguous word, I'd say. It carries different meanings to different people.

If pain was only physical, it can be medicated most of the time. But what if the pain is emotional? How is one to heal these invisible wounds which carry a far heavier consequence especially in the long term?

Scars that no one can see are most often the scars that influence our decisions from then on, be it consciously or unconsciously. We are all affected by emotional pain. It is extremely difficult to compartmentalise these whirlwind of emotions and at times, we are often at loss as to why some things happen.

We would of course like to believe that everything happens for a reason but sometimes it is just nice to know the reason sooner rather than later. We are, after all, only human and there is only so much patience one can have.

To be honest, I don't quite know where this discussion is heading. I am away from home and feeling slightly depressed. Maybe the distance will do me good. Maybe time will heal my wounds. Alas, my patience is wearing thin and I can't help but wonder what is His plan for me as I don't quite like the path I am on right now.

Yes, it is so very easy to say that we as individuals determine our own paths. God created us differently. Some people are stronger than others. I think I am far more physically strong than I am mentally. I am working on that. It is just frustrating that I have yet to see any results.

It's times like these that make me count my blessings a thousand times over.

2010-09-14T22:30:00.000+01:00

The second day that Kim and Ruba are in Taiping, we started out a lil' late. We had brunch at Tai Oh. Kim had bak kut teh while Ruba and I settled for chicken rice.

We then headed to the Zoo! We spent close to two and a half hours there and the two girls had loads of fun. It was really hot and humid but we enjoyed what the zoo had to offer.

After that, we made our way to the ATV spot in Taiping located on the way to the Taiping War Memorial Park. It was the first time the girls have been on one and it is safe to say, they both enjoyed themselves very much.

We came home, showered and rested. At around 7pm, we headed out for dinner. Again, the food was really good although Ruba was very disappointed that the food that she wanted had finished. After dinner we sat and spoke for a couple of hours.

At 12 a.m, we left Prima and made our way to siang malam. Mei Yen, Adrian, John and Pipe joined us there and we had a great time just sitting and talking.

I must say, we really had a great time. We enjoyed each others company and I am so lucky to have you guys in my life. Thank you.

Kim and Rubs in Taiping: Day 1

2010-09-14T12:46:00.000+01:00

The last few days have been so much fun to say the least. Kim and Ruba arrived at 1pm on Monday and I went to pick them up from the train station. We had lunch at home and then we got some rest. Shortly after, we headed to the saloon as Kim wanted to dye her hair and Ruba wanted to 'do something different' but she refuses to cut her hair. Haha.

There were so many people at the saloon so after Yen had her hair done and some time-wasting, we decided to go to central market to have tea which consisted of delicious mee rebus, fried egg and oyster, fruit rojak and we each had leng chee kang. HEAVEN!

I then took them for a drive around Taiping, showing them a few of our 'firsts'. We headed for dinner at Prima after that. Ruba had lobak for the first time ever and she absolutely loved it so much so, she wants to go to the same place for dinner tonight. Kim had a bowl of ginger wine noodles while I had claypot yee mee which was goooooooooooooood! :D

When we came home, we all had our showers and Kim being the bum, slept off. Ruba, Yen and I then went to siang malam at around 12 am and had supper. Again, Ruba loved it so much she wants to go again today. Haha.

We came home and Ruba headed to bed while I stayed on for a bit to watch Nadal. Unfortunately I couldn't quite keep my eyes open and I finally gave in, sleeping at around 4 am.

Just some pictures of Ruba enjoying siang malam..

...to be continued

continuation of ramblings from a few hours ago.

2010-09-12T13:32:00.001+01:00

So, what's new since a couple of hours ago? :)

First things first, Nadal whooped Youzhny's ass in straight sets *beams with happiness* while I personally think Federer self-destructed to hand the match to Djokovic in 5. Those who watched the match would understand what I mean.

There were only glimpses of quality tennis (which is only fair for us to expect considering the fact that this is the semis of a Grand Slam) and neither of them seemed to really want to win. I am of course slightly upset that Federer lost as I would have loved to see Nadal beat him to clinch the title but I guess I would settle for Nadal outplaying Djokovic in every aspect and teaching him a good ol' tennis lesson. :D

Well, well, well we have Rafa Nadal playing Novak Djokovic for the US Open 2010 men's singles title.

Come on, Rafa! =) Gosh, I am so biased. Haha. I will be up late to watch this match. I hope it will be worth my time.

As for the women's draw, without Serena Williams, it was not too exciting and the finals proved to be much of a disappointment. In fact, I did not even bother watching past 5 games. I got bored and the outcome was fairly predictable. For those not in the know, Kim Clijsters defeated (or more like blew) Vera Zvonareva (off the court) 6-2, 6-1.

I also have to complete my arbitration assignment which is due in a few hours time. True to me being me, I obviously am not even close to completing it. Haha. I will, though.

Also, LEI IS LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING PUCHI a.k.a Kimberly Tey Mei Zhern a.k.a Beverly (and hopefully RUBA) IN TAIPING TOMORROW!!!!! Haha. I truly am looking forward to that. Also, Yen is back as well so I will be dragging her along. Wheeeee! I love excursions like this. I think I will be taking them to the mangrove swamp in Kuala Sepetang and the charcoal factory. Then maybe we can also visit the zoo and have a proper look at the lake gardens. Ruba did mention something about hiking so if she makes it tomorrow, that's another activity on our list, hiking up Maxwell Hill. =)

It goes without saying that we will be busy filling out tummies with delicious Taiping food. *fingers crossed* I will not be a lazy bum and I will upload the pictures! Haha. I want to make full use of my new camera which by the way, I will take a shot of and post here. It's nothing fancy but it's the thought that counts. :D

I seem to have so much to say, all of a sudden. It happens when I have been on a blog hiatus for a period of time.

I will be meeting Yen later at Starbucks for a cuppa and to catch up. Roll in the good times, baby!

*now I have to get back to my arbitration assignment. @#$%^&*

of sleeping late, tennis and etc.

2010-09-11T20:52:00.000+01:00

Maybe sleeping late is not such a good idea anymore. The darkness combined with the cool breeze and thefact that I am sitting here alone is making me feel all nostalgic and has got me reminiscing the past.

I think too much, I'll give you that. I should just shut up and watch the match. Oh, it's the men's semifinals of the US Open.

Federer v Djokovic

I don't like either of them but I suppose I dislike Federer less than I do Djokovic so we'll see how it goes.

I'm rooting for Rafa Nadal to be champ this year. =) Ah, the god of tennis. He looks much fitter than I have ever seen him. I hope his form continues and he will be able to produce his best tennis for the semis and the finals. Looking forward to seeing him hoist the trophy majestically. :)

VAMOS RAFA!!

x x x x x x x

On a separate note, I am back in Taiping! Which means I am growing sideways!!! Anyone who has been here would know that the food is simply irresistable! :D I miss the hustle and bustle of KL, though. And I miss going to work, as peculiar as that sounds.

I also want to wish all my muslim friends Selamat Eid Mubarak! Have a blessed raya and stay safe always.

I shall get back to watching my tennis and maybe turning in soon. Good night! (or should I say, good morning?)

Puss in Boots

2010-09-03T08:10:00.000+01:00

I have a sudden fascination for this cutie whom I must say, is reaallllllyyyyyyyyyy ADORABLE. :)

Now how can you say no to a face like that?

Eminem - I'm Not Afraid

2010-08-26T07:20:00.001+01:00

And this is why I missed him and his music. Cuz it's simply amazing.

Enjoy! : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s

Germany+Austria!

2010-08-23T09:57:00.000+01:00

Now that I have finally found the mood to blog, I shall tell you about my trip to Germany and Austria.

It was JUST SO MUCH FUN!!! I missed my little bro dearly and it was really great seeing him. I was also really pleased to finally meet his family. When I say family, it is not only limited to his parents and sister, but also his grandparents, his nieces and nephews, his father's best friend and his family...the list goes on! =)

We visited many places (I can't spell many of them). We saw castles, mountains, sent his sister for horseback riding, watched him swim as I read a book, etc.

His maternal grandparents were so kind to cook us a typical Bavarian meal which was simply delicious (my plate was clean!). We also drove up to see the bonfire festival which was a beautiful sight. I have never seen such a big bonfire before. His house was next to a river and the view was amazing.

We drove to Munich to be part of the public viewing for the World Cup match.

Germany v England

There were about 60, 000 die hard German fans there and the feeling of being part of one of them is indescribable. I had so much fun.

Stef also took us to Austria but we did not really get to spend much time there as we had to hurry back home. We cooked dinner for his mum and a few family members. On the menu was chicken curry, stir-fried vegetables and also fried rice. They seemed to genuinely enjoy the meal especially Stefan. He ate with his fingers and finished TWO MOUNTAINS of rice and chicken. Hahaha. Hope you liked it, lil' one.

All in all, my trip was simply amazing. Germany is beautiful and I hope to go back there again for another visit. The traditional food tastes much better than English food, that's for sure but there might be some communication problems as not all of them speak English. However, they are very nice people and are friendly.

Thanks for being such a great host, Stef! =) Love you!

Jules.

2010-08-10T10:06:00.002+01:00

How do you deal with the loss of someone close to you? Someone was part of your daily life. Someone who cared. Someone you cared about. Someone you looked forward to seeing everyday when you came into the office.

I miss you, Jules. I miss you calling me "Sayang". I miss how you hugged me. I miss you talking to me. I miss our Skype conversations in the office. I miss you telling me so many things. I miss working with you. Most of all, I miss you as a dear, dear friend.

I lost another close friend in March and I most certainly did not anticipate losing another. And not in the way this happened.

I cannot get you out of my mind. We had an appointment to sit down together and work on an article on Monday. Little did I know, you would be taken away from me on Saturday. I drove back as soon as I could. I couldn't get over the shock. It refused to sink in for me. I simply could not accept the fact. I was praying that it was merely a prank.

Everything seems so surreal at the moment.

I wish you were still here.

You were a wonderful person and I genuinely loved you. You were a great friend to me. Someone I will remember and cherish for the rest of my life.

I am having a birthday party this Saturday. A party you were supposed to attend. I am going go ahead with the party. But it will not be merely to celebrate my 21st but also to celebrate you, my friend. You and your wonderful life and I am so proud to be part of it.

I love you. And I am happy to say that I did tell you I love you. And I have no regrets. You are amazing, Jules. You always will be.

Sincerely,

Your friend.

Interested in having fun while giving back to the community?

2010-08-05T16:25:00.001+01:00

Brickfields Asia College (BAC) is organising a charity event in aid of the MFD and MMCA. Check the link below out to find out how you can contribute to this great cause while having a good time with our very own Malaysian artists such as Balan Kashmir, Gary Yeap, Caprice, Goldkartz and K-Town Clan!

Come and show your support and rake up positive karma points! =)

http://blog.youthsays.com/2893/giving-back-to-the-community/

....

2010-06-25T20:46:00.000+01:00

Two things. Don´t lie to me and don´t do things behind my back. Sounds simple enough but I guess for some people that is too much to ask for.

Why be someone else in front of me even though that makes me happy? Because it becomes really hard when I eventually find out.

Kim, I wish you were here.

after exams update.

2010-06-05T16:34:00.000+01:00

After exam party!!!!! NOT. I have NOT been partying, contrary to what SOME people may think. =) Quite the opposite, I have been relaxing, cathing up on my sleep, watching countless movies, cooking and simply being with my friends.

The travelling part will be starting soon and things are bound to get hectic then. Once I have confirmed my flight tickets I will blog about where my chosen destinations are going to be. For now, I am just enjoying life and taking things one at a time.

Living life one day at a time, dealing with things as they come, these traits were never a part of me. I was always a planner. Not anymore, I guess. I stopped planning once I saw that when you make plans, you create hope and expectations and when you don't meet them, you're disappointed. So why put yourself through that agony? =)

Once I get my camera, the pictures will tell you more of what I will be up to and the places I plan to visit. Till then, adios. :)

out in the garden.

2010-05-25T00:32:00.000+01:00

We were all rather stressed what with our finals going on and all. We have not had much time to meet up and spend time together like we used to. Somehow on Friday, that is exactly what we did. Ryan, Michelle and I were walking back to our rooms after dinner and we saw our friends, Dhaya, Ambi and Feryal sitting in Aberdare Garden talking. We decided to join them. =) Ryan took it a step further by going to her room and getting a mat for us to lie on.

We sat, talked about random topics and just had a lot of fun. It has been a while since we did that. The weather was beautiful. Not too hot, not too cold.

I enjoyed that. =)

a blessed soul.

2010-05-25T00:05:00.000+01:00

I have an honest belief that if there ever existed someone who was envious of me, it would not be for anything else but the fact that I have awesome friends. Not many people I know can say that they have more than five true friends. Friends whom they can count on. Friends they know will be there for them through thick or thin. Friends who will be there when they need a shoulder to cry on.

I have a small group of friends who are like that. Yes, I am that lucky. I have friends whom I know will drop anything to be by my side should the need arise. No questions asked. No hesitation. Friends who will do things for me and not expect anything in return. Who genuinely enjoy my company without judging the person that I am.

I can proudly say that I have friends who have the guts and who know me well enough to tell me when I have done something wrong. Who will knock some sense in my head when I am being irrational. Who despite me not listening to them and getting myself hurt, will be there for me.

Getting friends to put up with my behaviour is a task by itself. I am hyperactive, annoying, blunt, loud, insensitive, crazy and I am not really someone who will care about what other people think about me (which somehow explains the mad way I can behave in public which can embarrass the company I am with). And yet despite all that, they still love me (or I'd like to think that they do).

Yes, I am blessed indeed. Blessed to have friends like you. =)

keindahan alam.

2010-05-24T23:44:00.001+01:00

Alangkah bagus sekiranya setiap malam seindah malam ini.

Bulan mengambang bersinar terang,

pantulan bayang-bayangnya kelihatan begitu cantik pada mata kasarku.

Keindahan alam membawa suatu ketenangan pada jiwa.

Ketenangan yang sukar dicari sejak kebelakangan ini.

Mungkin kerana kita terlalu sibuk mengejar kekayaan, mengejar masa.

Apalah sangat erti keindahan alam?

Kelihatan nun jauh, burung-burung berterbangan

Cuaca yang sempurna membuatku gembira.

Biarlah hariku bermula dengan hati yang senang.

Biarlah senyuman ini kekal selama yang mungkin.

Oh, keindahan alam.

outstanding vocals. =)

2010-05-16T01:29:00.000+01:00

I was taking a break from studying EU Law and was surfing youtube when I came across these two videos. I found the voices of these two girls absolutely amazing. Just outstanding vocals and it gave me the goosebumps.

WOW.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDrCtu8VRHM&feature=related

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0_Ib4Rg0Tk&feature=related

Patches.

2010-05-13T16:31:00.001+01:00

I have been itching to know what was the title of this song because I could not recall the lyrics and I had the sudden urge to listen to this song since the 10th of May (for some odd, inexplicable reason). My uncle and dad used to sing this song at almost every family gathering we had.

Somehow, I really like this song. I think it's awesome. The lyrics are so simple yet touching. I hope you will like it as much as I do.

PATCHES

Down by the river that flows by the coal yards stand wooden houses with shutters torn down. There lives a girl everybody calls Patches. Patches my darling of old Shantytown.

We planned to marry when June brought the summer I couldn't wait to make Patches my bride now I don't see how that ever can happen. My folks say no and my heart breaks inside.

Patches oh what can I do I swear I'll always love you but a girl from that place would just bring me disgrace so my folks won't let me love you.

Each night I cry as I think of that shanty and pretty patches there watching the door. She doesn't know that I can't come to see her Patches must think that I love her no more.

I hear a neighbor telling my father he says a girl name of Patches was found floating face down in that dirty old river that flows by the coal yards in old Shantytown.

Patches oh what can I do I swear I'll always love you. It may not be right but I'll join you tonight. Patches I'm coming to you.

By: Dickey Lee

Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Ycz8xiij5I

Rose, rose I love you!

2010-05-13T16:05:00.000+01:00

I was studying TORT when this song came to mind. Talk about being random.

Rose, Rose I love you with an aching heart.
What is your future, now we have to part?
Standing on the jetty as the steamer moves away,
Flower of Malaya, I cannot stay.

Make way, oh, make way for my Eastern Rose.
Men crowd in dozens everywhere she goes.
In her rickshaw on the street or in a cabaret,
"Please make way for Rose," you can hear them say.

All my life I shall remember,
Oriental music and you in my arms.
Perfumed flowers in your tresses,
Lotus-scented breezes and swaying palms.

Rose, Rose I love you with your almond eyes.
Fragrant and slender 'neath tropical skies.
I must cross the seas again and never see you more.
Way back to my home on a distant shore.

(All my life I shall remember,)
(Oriental music and you in my arms.)
(Perfumed flowers in your tresses,)
(Lotus-scented breezes and swaying palms.)

Rose, Rose I leave you, my ship is in the bay.
Kiss me farewell now, there's nothin' to say.
East is East and West is West, our worlds are far apart.
I must leave you now but I leave my heart.

Rose, Rose I love you with an aching heart.
What is your future, now we have to part?
Standing on the jetty as the steamer moves away,
Flower of Malaya, I cannot stay.

(Rose, Rose I love you, I cannot stay.)

By: Frankie Laine

Youtube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xpEGTSed1lI&feature=related

gut instinct

2010-05-11T01:46:00.000+01:00

I have an uneasy feeling. And I absolutely hate it.

Because in the past, every single time I have had this feeling, something did go wrong. I wish I knew what it is that is causing this. I thought it was me thinking too much or me being a drama queen but it is not.

I genuinely feel that something not right has happened. Or maybe it is happening. I doubt it is something that is going to happen because I have never had that before. Meaning, I have never foreseen a negative event. I have just had this feeling when something bad either had already happened or is happening.

I hope to God that it is nothing. Because I could really do with a few months free of any bad news.

Somehow, I have a feeling it has got to do with the issue of trust. This quote came to mind when I first started feeling this way.

Trust is like a vase. Once it is broken, it is possible to fix it but you will always see the cracks.

I'd like a nice, new shiny vase. Please. No more ones with cracks.

=(

2010-05-10T12:43:00.001+01:00

I hurt my knee! =(

That was THROUGH MY JEANS.
It was bleeding just now but has stopped now. I hope there is no bruise.
Grrrr.
On the bright side, I may now have a new cool scar to show off. :P

Chelsea - CHAMPIONS

2010-05-10T11:24:00.000+01:00

So, news of the week is that CHELSEA WON THE BARCLAYS PREMIER LEAGUE 09/10.

*evil laugh*

Now I can go back to my books feeling all happy and contended. =)

exams drive us crazy.

2010-05-09T00:52:00.000+01:00

Nine days into the month signals that I have ten days to prepare for my first paper, Land Law which is on the 19th. It is not the most pleasant thought in the world but it is reality and no one said reality was going to be pretty. Every year as the exam period approaches, we all have the same thoughts in our heads. IF ONLY I HAD STARTED EARLIER. Haha, that is very typical of students. =) Almost all of us are guilty of this.

Also, we never fail to vow that we would start earlier the next year and almost always, that does not happen. Haha. Oh well, we were in the group study room earlier and when we started talking, we realised that each one of us has had thoughts of dying or sustaining injuries in order to get out of sitting for our exams.

We had hilarious stories about getting hit by a car, falling down a flight of stairs, falling backwards while sitting on a chair and injuring our necks, getting severe fever and the list just goes on and on. It was a stress relief for us because to be honest, European Union Law was driving us insane.

Danielle said she was so worried and she then proceeded to burst out laughing for no apparent reason while she repeatedly said " I'm so dead, I'm so dead". Hmmm, one must question our state of mind during exam month.

The law library is usually empty with maybe a handful of students doing researches for assignments but now, students are actually getting up early so that they can get a place to sit in the library and they complain when the library closed at half past 5 today because it was deemed too early. Imagine that!

I really should get back to my books now. Maybe if I think less about all these things, I could focus more on my studies and actually understand something. =) Wish me luck!

cheating.

2010-05-09T00:34:00.001+01:00

Last Saturday, I finally gathered the courage to tell a friend of mine, A, that I think her boyfriend, Y, was cheating on her. I suspected this 3 months ago but I had no proof. I have had a very bad previous experience where I told my friend something unpleasant about her boyfriend which I thought she should know and she didn't believe me until almost a year later when she found out the truth. Thus, I was very worried that A would not believe me as well.

However, a few things happened on Friday (the night prior to me telling her) and when I found out about them, I decided that I should no longer keep quiet. I put myself in A's shoe and I knew that if it was me, I would want to know. When I told her, my heart beat so fast because I was unsure if she would believe me.

Fortunately for me, A was a rational person who had her head on her shoulders and didn't blindly just call her boyfriend and confront him. Instead, she called a few other people to confirm some of my suspicions. Up to this point, we had no proof.

She then decided that she wanted to confront him face to face after asking the girl we suspected he was cheating with, X. When we got to the place, A then asked X if it was true that X was having an affair with Y. X confirmed it and that was all the proof that A needed. She got it right out of the horses' mouth.

I don't want to divulge too much into the facts. What is done is done. But this incident got me thinking. Y spent so much time convincing everyone that anyone who doubts him was a fool and that A was insecure for thinking that he would stray. They had barely gotten together for 2 months when he first cheated.

Why? Why must people cheat? If you find that you don't love someone any longer, why is it so difficult to just break up and move on? So many say that they were trying to protect their partners and that is why they did not initiate for a break up. Yes, I do realise that there are many other factors that could be important that should be considered before making any decisions but I think cheating as a way out is utter bullshit. What happens when your partner finds out about the deceit? Doesn't this hurt more?

Breach of such trust is unforgivable and many a time, it leads to the breakdown of the relationship. Cheating does not prove you're great. It does not make you a man. It does not make you a sexy lady. It does nothing but prove what a wasted sperm you are. If that is your aim in life, then cheating should be one of your top methods of achieving it.

Trust is delicate. You can gain it in a day but once you lose it, it takes a lifetime to rebuild. We are all humans. We make mistakes. But not ones as big as this. It is difficult to justify cheating. There is a saying which I believe summarises a whole lot in just a few words. It goes, 'to forgive is human but to forget is divine'. And we are all HUMAN. Yes, we may forgive but the thought will always linger at the back of our heads because we will never forget.

No one is perfect. Which is why we do not have the right to judge another. That is very true. But if you expect people to back off your case and not judge you, you must not have judged anyone else in the first place. Can anyone tell me that they have NEVER judged another before? Anyone? I must say, if you do answer yes, I would be very sceptical. Ah, call me a pessimist. I believe that everyone has judged another at some point in their lives. So how can you expect people not to judge you?

Do onto others what you want others to do onto you. It does not matter how many times you pray or how many alms you give or how many gods you worship. What matters is if your heart is pure. Karma has a way of biting you in the back when you least expect it. Live by this and there would be world peace.

Just my two cents. :)

crumble.

2010-04-30T19:11:00.000+01:00

Remember when I said hopefully I won't crumble (I mentioned it in my post "change"). Yeah, well I am trying my best not to.

Hmmm, I feel unwise letting my guard down. I should just stick to building walls and making sure no one comes in. That way, I don't get burned. So, I think I shall do just that.

Keeping people at a distance keeps me safe. I never should have been so carefree and open. It is okay. We all learn from mistakes. I keep making the same mistakes over and over again but I will try over and over again to learn from them.

Maybe I will feel better. Maybe then, I won't crumble. Maybe then, it won't hurt.

Kimberly Tey Mei Zhern

2010-04-30T12:14:00.002+01:00

Kim was ranting on about how I dedicated a whole post to Nicky and not to her. Haha, well Kim here is one for you.

I love you. I love you very much because you're one of the best-est friends I have. You always have my back. You are used to knowing things about me months after the issue has died down. You think I'm awesome even though both you and I know I am not.

You put up with my crazy attitude, sat me down and literally beat my knuckles to revise for Economics during our A Levels times. You were and will always be my perfect partner when it comes to group work or organising anything because we compliment each other. We nailed the Ball because we had a great team and everyone busted their asses off.

Yes, we've had our moments where we did not get along, but which friendship does not have that? The important thing is that we solve whatever issues we have and life goes on.

I sit down and listen to you talk about your pink nails and though I may tease you about it, I do it gladly because you mean a lot to me. If I want to know if I have changed all I have to do is ask you because you know me very well. I can tease you so much and yet you still want to spend time with me. I get so many free passes that other people do not get because I know you love me even though I do things that make you want to pull your hair out (almost).

I can go on about so many reasons as to why you are my best friend and why I love you but I think you get the picture. Thank you for always being there for me. Just so you know, I will always have your back too and you know you can count on me to be there for you.

I know I didn't say this very often last time but I do now and I will continue to; I love you, Kimberly Tey Mei Zhern. I really do. And I cannot, at this moment, imagine living through studying at Brickfields Asia College without you. =)

nicky baby.

2010-04-22T14:19:00.000+01:00

Dearest Nicky,

Chechi misses you. Chechi really, really misses you.

I miss how you would sleep on my pillow and refuse to budge. And the way you would also sleep smack in the middle of my bed and I would have to sleep around you. I miss the way you're always so excited when I come back home. Especially after school. And the way you lick my hands and yelp in excitement.

I miss the way you look at me with those big brown eyes when you want food. And the way you come slowly and lightly scratch me to get my attention so you can be pampered. I miss the way when you wag your tail and your whole lower half of your body shakes. And the way your ears bend behind when you know you've done something wrong or when you're happy.

Most of all, I miss the way you always know when Chechi is feeling sad or down. And when I lie on my bed and you come next to it, stand on your hind legs, put your two front paws on the bed and rest your head between them, all the while, just looking at me.

I really miss the way you would jump up on my bed and lick away my tears and cuddle up next to me. You are the one I trust most in this world. And I miss being able to talk to you about anything. Anything at all. I miss how you always managed to make me feel better, no matter what I am going through. And how everything seems well with the world when I hug you. You always made me feel happy. You are the only one who doesn't judge. You love unconditionally.

I wish you were here, baby. I really, really wish you were here. I may not be homesick but at this very moment, you are the one person chechi misses most in the world. You're part of the family and you're certainly part of me.

Chechi misses you terribly. I wish I could tell you this. I wish you would greet me when I open my room door.

Whatever it is, know that Chechi loves you. Chechi really loves you.

Tell me.

2010-04-21T17:59:00.000+01:00

When you hurt, you become irrational but amidst all that so-called stupid thoughts, there exist some very rational ones.

Sometimes, you have to strain to listen to that voice in your mind and not your heart. Because your mind is more rational than your heart. It's hard but just try. And keep trying! Try and try and try again and again and again.

So tell me, why do people love? IF it is for the happiness, why can't we source for happiness from some other place? Why does it have to be something that hurts so much?

I think that as humans, we are irrational. We take the tougher path. The choice that gets us hurt. See, the thing is, if we don't love, we don't care. And when we don't care, we don't get burned. So why love?

Tell me. :)

To..

2010-04-21T16:25:00.002+01:00

...love truly is to hurt deeply.

So why love?

Life...

2010-04-21T16:24:00.002+01:00

...is like a box of spoilt chocolates.

change.

2010-04-17T20:32:00.003+01:00

Going back to Malaysia during the Easter break was a mixture of good and bad experiences. One thing it has taught me is that even though I have only been gone for six months, they have been six very long months and in that time, I have changed a lot. There are many things that are so different about me now, be it obvious or otherwise.

Whether I have changed for the better or for worse is not really for me to judge. I do notice the changes but not as much as others do. Maybe it is the way I behave. For one, my tolerance level towards stupidity has decreased a lot. I am very unwilling to be pulled into anyone's drama.

I have learnt to mind my own business, maybe offer advice here and there, not be bothered if the person does not take my advice and continues on the road of self-destruction and not get sucked into any unwanted problems which is of no concern to me.

I asked Kim if I have changed. She would know. She is one of the closest people to me in college and she would know best. According to her, I have not changed much but then again, I've always treated Kim the same, before and after UK. I still love her. Though not as much as she loves me. Hahahahahaha! (She is going to whack me for this.)

She did mention, though, that I have become more confident, more determined and I seem to know what I want. I don't know if I would agree with the last one but for the first two, I think I concur. I have also become more vain and I carry myself better, according to someone else she was talking to.

I have become more determined because I keep losing what I love most. Thus, I have to either keep working hard to keep what I love or work even harder to keep them away so I don't get burned when I lose them. I have also become more confident. That's easy to explain, considering the fact that you make me feel like I am worth it.

I battled self-esteem issues for a long time regarding a lot of things. Yeah, I was confident in certain abilities but not when it came to things like how I look. I have to admit, coming here and being able to be myself, to act like me and to dress like me has helped a lot. I have become more comfortable in my own skin.

I would not go so far as to say that I have completely recovered but I am getting there. I know that this could all come crashing down the day the dreaded thing happens but I guess I will just enjoy the moment and try to build up the strength to not crumble when it does.

Another thing I have learnt that I feel is one of the most important lessons I've had since coming here is that there is no need to have many friends when you have a few ones who are dear and who love you very much. I have a small group of friends whom I know for sure will have my back in the event something bad happens to me. Or if I need a shoulder to cry on. Or for someone to turn to.

And these are the same people I want to share my happiness with. And for whom I will be there for no matter what because these people matter to me. I cannot afford to lose real friends. No one can. No matter what they say, no one can afford to lose real friends simply because there are so few ones left in the world.

Even friends change. Things happen, especially when you're gone for months. And when you come back, you cannot expect everything to remain the same or expect people to treat you the same. It's the same way how people cannot expect you to be the same as well.

Oh well, CHANGE. Some people can deal with it, some simply can't.

On a completely random note, someone told me I look cute in shorts. Hahahaha.

Bless the weather now. I LOVE IT! :)

jealousy.

2010-04-11T18:18:00.000+01:00

Jealousy. What does the word mean to you? What significance does it bear? How do different people react to it?

Everyone has felt some form of jealousy in their lives. It is human nature. But how we deal with it differs from one individual to another. I started this post out intending for it to be a general overview about my opinion on this subject matter but I have come to realise that it strikes too close to home for me not to personalize it.

There are so many sayings regarding jealousy and they all come to the same conclusion and that is that jealousy is the root to all evil. Why so? I don't really have an answer to this question.

I personally was a very, very jealous and possessive person. If I feel that someone is mine, I am not willing to share. I used to be so terrible but along the way and as times passed by, I learnt many new things and controlling my jealousy was one of it.

It is not easy dating someone whom everyone wants a piece of. It is not easy being in a relationship with someone who has a million admirers. It is not easy dating someone so many people who are better than me in so many aspects want to be with. This is in no way insinuating that I am dating someone. I am merely stating my feelings.

Yeah, it is not easy but a wise person once told me, "Your admirers can spend the whole day with you and it would not bother me simply because I know you are mine and mine alone." Yeah, they can spend time trying to get you but at the end of the day, you still come back to me.

I know that may work for some people but then again there are people out there who are like me. People who think, " what are you going to do when he/she doesn't come back to you one goddamn day?" Some will say that that means this person was never mine to start with. When in love, no one thinks completely rationaly. I am scared to love because when you love, that's when you're scared to lose. I have a knack of getting people dearest to me to move away.

Yeah, I am scared. Oh well, I am working on this and I will continue working towards having no jealousy at all. At the moment, I am still a rather jealous person.

why?

2010-04-04T11:47:00.000+01:00

I was just chatting with my friend, Rose, when something occurred to me. In our journey through life, we meet new people, go to new places and we get attached to people.

Why do we get attached to people? How do we know if these people would be there all the time? Why do we get attached when we know we are bound to get hurt in the end?

I'll leave it at that and when I have put further thought into this I will come back.

lazy Sunday

2010-03-28T17:07:00.000+01:00

Today went extremely slowly but it did give me a chance to kick back and relax. I had difficulty sleeping last night and I was on the phone until I finally slept off at about half past 5 in the morning. Dad woke me up at half past 8 to go for breakfast. We went to our regular Sunday breakfast shop and had mee hun with fried egg.

I sent him back home and drove to the Taiping library to meet up with pS. We went to Pizza Hut for lunch and we spoke for a bit. She was happy to see me and she said she missed me! =) That was fun. I then sent her back to her car and left for home. I bummed around (as usual) for a bit and finally tried to get some sleep when my maid knocked on my door and asked if I could send her to the mini market nearby to get some vegetables for dinner.

I came back and slept for slightly less than three hours. Dad came back from his golf game, woke me up and we had dinner together. He watched golf while here I am, online and catching up with a few of my friends.

I should try and get some sleep soon as I will be driving back to KL alone tomorrow morning and I cannot fall asleep at the wheel!!!

Good night, people! =)

Cardiff European Games 2010

2010-03-27T14:38:00.000Z

Here are some of the pictures I could get from the Cardiff European Games 2010. The committee members were really busy so there are not many pictures. I will try and get my hands on more. =)

Studies. . .

2010-03-27T14:20:00.001Z

I want to meet up with everyone! Friends AND family!

BUT...

I have to find the time to complete my assignments. I have to study and work hard towards that FIRST CLASS that I promised a certain special someone I would aim for. If I don't get it, it doesn't matter but I will work towards it. I will give it my best shot.

You gave me a chance to make you happy. I will do my best to do that.

I know that doing the best I can and excelling in my studies would make you very happy and I will do so. Yes, you mean that much to me.

I will not let you down.

Hello, Malaysia! =)

2010-03-27T14:13:00.000Z

Well, Malaysia, here I am! =) Six months of being away and returning home has shown me how much some things, some people change while other things, other people remain the same.

Being on the outside changes our perspective. I have realised who my friends are and just how much I mean to them. That has certainly made me realise that I am important to certain people and that I must learn to appreciate them more.

It felt great to surprise everyone. Especially my dad and my sister. They were well and truly taken aback as they did not see this coming at all. I missed them so much and I am glad to be back.

Pictures are coming up soon! More meet-ups with friends and family on the cards! :)

:)

2010-03-27T13:59:00.003Z

Just a song which reflects how I feel at the moment. =)

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me.

Just beautiful, innit? =)

mundane days in Cardiff.

2010-03-19T18:57:00.002Z

When I say my life in Cardiff can get boring, no one believes me but IT IS TRUE!

Take yesterday, for example. I woke up in the morning (early for class but definitely not in time for breakfast) and had classes from 10 am till 1 pm. After that, I went to prepare lunch in Garden Wing. I had Indo Mee (instant noodles saves my life all the time!) and baked chicken. I loved the chicken! I marinated it with chilli powder, garlic and black pepper. It was LUSH!

Then, I came back to my room. My ulcer was killing me so I had no choice but to go on antibiotics (to those who know me, yes Lei is taking medication so don't look so shocked). I stayed in bed and got good rest. When I got up I cleaned my room and put up more pictures that I had printed. I set my Gandhi poster straight on my wall and then fell asleep again.

See! Boring I tell you.

Today was not much difference. I gave mum a call before she left to Shanghai for a vacation with her sisters. =) Have fun, Mum! I know you will!

I cooked tuna with chilli and fried rice for lunch. Rae came over and supplied the vegetables. I stole some of Ambi's chilli powder (sorry, Ambi!). Haha. It turned out quite nice, if I may say so myself.

I went shopping! Bought some souvenirs and a shirt for my dad. It is pink in colour and the salesman asked me if my dad wore pink. I just told him, "He has to because I bought it for him". He started laughing. Well, it is true! I am his daughter so he has no choice! :)

I got drenched because it is raining heavily in Cardiff. :( I had to dry my hair and to make myself feel better I made a cup of hot soup. I cannot believe this but I am hungry already! Argh. What nonsense. I am a real piglet, I swear.

I have just been told that I cannot swear because it just doesn't come out right when I say it. Huh? *sigh* Even after much explanation I don't know if I will understand that concept.

I am off to cook now. Am having baked chicken with the rice I had from lunch. Delicious! =)

Post FOD 7 pre CEG

2010-03-18T01:40:00.001Z

I'm back! Hahaha I have said this so many times in the past few posts that I am guessing you'd just roll your eyes and go, "AGAIN". Oh well, I have been busy, people.

Loads of things have been happening since the last I posted something up. First things first, the Festival of Diversity VII (FOD 7) was a HUGE (and I do mean huge) success. We were sold out and the audience had a great time. The reviews received after the show were promising and it left us all with a very happy feeling. Everyone involved gave it their best shot and we had fun doing it as well. All the hard work and the amount of time invested in this certainly paid off. I was the narrator, the 'tok bomoh', the indian dance choreographer (for the guys steps) and I also danced. Oooo I was part of the opening act as well! I played the kompang. Haha. Here are some of the shots of the event. :)

As soon as that was over, Cardiff European Games 2010 (CEG 2010) came into the picture. Oh boy, has MSSCF been taking up a huge load of my time. :D It's all in good fun and besides, come this Saturday, once CEG is over, I will be free again!

Studies have been slow, I have to admit but I promise I will buck up. I have to. I have so many people to please and a certain someone to impress. :)

Life's been generally good to me. I have nothing much to complain about. Yeah, I do wish that some things were different but as these are the things that are completely out of my control, why should I waste my time thinking about it?

I will upload more pictures (I know you probably have heard this a dozen times but I have yet to go through with my promises) once I am free and I find the time. Right now, I have loads of other more important things to do which happen to be extremely urgent.

Till we meet again,
cheers!

13 days into 2010.

2010-01-13T23:17:00.003Z

Been a while, since my last post, innit? Well, here I am now. Haha. I've had a crazy start to the year, I have.

Been partying and studying, that's what I've been doing.

Ahhh, loads have changed since last year and it's not even been a month into 2010. Good and bad, both. I guess I'm taking everything with a pinch of salt. That's the way to go! :) Makes you tons happier.

Three assignments due on the 11th did my head in proper and I did not sleep for more than 24 hours completing everything. That is obviously fault on my part for not getting at it earlier but hey, sounds familiar doesn't it? :D Same old Lei. Haha.

The new year doesn't change much except that I'm gonna be a year older now. Owh damn I don't wanna grow up!!! @£$%^&@£%^!!!

*growls*

Aberystwyth was amazing. I felt so at home and I miss the girls. They're coming up to Cardiff so I'm all excited and awaiting the day. I have to work on finishing my assignments before they get here or they'd kill me :)

I miss home much. All of them. Mum, dad and sis. Oh well, at least I know they're doing fine. The recent attacks and the unrest back home has got us all upset. Having to hear bad news every day during breakfast isn't the best way to start the day. Hopefully everything settles down soon. For God's sake (no pun intended), we should all learn how to live in peace. If you don't like something, turn your head and walk away. However, I am in no position to comment anyway. I just advocate peace and love.

Okay guys I better get going. Take care yeah?! :D Peace out.

new year

2009-12-31T18:24:00.002Z

It's new years' eve and I am feeling a lil' down.

Maybe they did tell me and I forgot about it. You never know. I really don't recall but I think they did. They would not do something like this. It must have slipped their mind.

Enough of that. I hope my friends and family ushering the new year from all around the world are having the time of their lives. Here's to a new year of more happiness and blessing from god.

Take care and party safe. Get sloshed! :))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

snowing in Aber

2009-12-20T21:46:00.001Z

Snow.. Snow.. SNOW!!!

I have seen snow but I have never seen it actually snowing. It was a pretty sight, I must say. I enjoyed the view...from INDOORS!! :D Haha.

Argh, it is so beautiful here. I wish I brought my camera. *smacks forehead*

changes.

2009-12-18T21:35:00.004Z

Yal and I got talking while the walrus a.k.a whale a.k.a sea lion, Dal, slept.

We talked about how things are in terms of our personal life.

About studies and choices of subjects.

About our choices of coming to the UK to continue our studies.

About how that choice has affected relationships of us and people around us.

About how much we've changed and in what way.

About how we deal with heartbreaks.

About how we learn to trust, to let go, to love, to ignore, to love ourselves, to not expect too much. . . you get my point.

Looking at it from two different perspectives is such an enlightening experience. Since coming here, I've had my heart broken and I've moved on. She's had her heart broken and is in the final stages of moving on. Two situations but yet we looked at things similarly.

One of the most important things that I have learnt since coming here is that I am worth it and I deserve someone equally as good or better. I never have to settle for anything less. I love myself so much more now. I have more confidence.

I guess it also has something to do with the fact that I have amazing friends around me who constantly remind me that I am awesome. Well, I may not be but if I am so to them, then that is all that matters.

My friends back in Malaysia actually miss me and wish I was back there with them. It may seem like a small thing but believe me, it matters a lot. It puts a smile on my face, thinking about them. :)

I miss my mom so much more. We've become so much closer now. I really value that and I don't ever want to lose it. I share almost everything with her. There is something I would really, really like to tell her but the problem is even I myself am not sure and I also don't want to hurt her. Once I have that sorted out, I will speak to her. :)

I would like to think that my relationship with my sister has improved as well. I still worry about her but I cannot help it because she will always be my baby sister always and forever, whether she likes it or not. I know she's all grown up now. I am sure she will make matured decisions in everything she does.

Knowing all these has given me confidence beyond what I have ever had before. I DON'T have to wear low cut tops, dresses or skirts which are too short, take a million compromising pictures of myself and such to get attention. I have the attention I need from people who matter.

It is amazing how different things are when you are looking from outside the circle (if you know what I mean). So much drama happening and I used to get sucked in. Now, over my dead body! :) I like living like how I am doing now. I don't need other people messing it up for me. Some people are just not worth my time.

All in all, I miss Malaysia to bits but I am grateful for the fact that I am given such a wonderful opportunity to study abroad and I am going to learn as much as I can from the time I am given.

I may not sound like the same person you used to know. I am still Lei. Just better now. Yes, to some, this post may sound very self-righteous or that I think too highly of myself. To be honest, I'm not all that bad. Get to know me. Who knows, you may like what you discover. =)

As they say it here, CHEERS! :D

Aber, here I am. :D

2009-12-18T20:07:00.003Z

Sorry for being MIA for such a long time. Things have been super duper hectic and I have been having loads of FUN!!!

Well first things first, I'm in Aberystwyth again. Yes, I am here AGAIN. :) Why? Because it is an amazing place and I absobloodylutely love it here?

Haha I missed my friends and it feels so nice to be with them again. Dal's whines and Yal's sarcastic retorts. OMG I missed them both. And now I am here!!

Hmmm, I reached on Monday and we've just been hanging out and chilling mostly. We went to Constitution Hill or otherwise known as CH, today. You see, we came up with the abbreviation because for some strange reason, it would rain whenever Dal and I mentioned the full name so that's how CH was born.

Dal, Yal, Sabrina Mahmood and I walked up with the assistance of our tour guide for the day, Shanker. Thanks to him, we made it up safely. The walk up wasn't too bad (considering the fact that Dal's and Sab's idea of appropriate footwear were boots).

It was freezing cold but we were sweating when we reached. As usual, us being the cam-whores that we were, we kinda slowed the walk up. Haha. Oh well, it was bloody hell worth it because we took beautiful pictures (of ourselves of course) :D I will upload the pictures once I get my hands on them.

We spent some time up there before the cold finally forced us to make our way back down. We then had a scrumptious lunch in Varsity. Buffalo wings for everyone! *licks fingers* Yummmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy. Hahaha. We've been there for buffalo wings so often the waiter, Ben, commented that we would soon grow wings. Lame, yes but he is HOT so who cares?? Haha.

Anyway, we came back home, got some rest and now we're getting ready for some night life fun in Aber. Haha.

Pre-drinks, anyone?
Why Not?

LMAO. (only people in Aber will get the joke) *wink*

to Bristol and Bath..

2009-11-30T22:46:00.003Z

Let's talk about my weekend getaway and a lil' bit more, eh?

I left for Bristol on Friday. took a cab to Mirna's place. She actually cooked me dinner! That sweet thing. Haha. Well I shall spare the details because it's incriminating and might be slightly boring.

Going to Bristol has made me realise that Cardiff is really amazing. I live literally 15 minutes walk away from the city centre and my law school is right in front of my room. I don't have to take a cab every time I wish to go somewhere. The cabs in Bristol were really expensive. But hey, I really had fun. Met up with Laveena and we actually spoke properly, for the first time ever. Hahaha.

On Sunday I met up with the rest of the group coming from Cardiff at Bristol Parkway and we took a train to Bath Spa. Bath is a beautiful place but it rained the whole day and I was soaked. We went to see the Bath Christmas market. Some of the things sold were really pretty and most of them were expensive. I bought just two things.

We even had time to visit an English looking shop and had proper English tea with scones and jam and butter. How cool is that? :)

I slept on the way home. I was completely exhausted and I was already sick.

I couldn't make it to my morning lecture today as I was feeling extremely unwell. I feel better now so that's a good sign.

It's getting really cold here, innit? :( I'm freezingggggggggggggg!!!

That's it folks. It is an uninspired post, I know. I will make up for it soon, okay? Take care!!

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2009-11-22T20:42:00.001Z

It was the BAC prom night yesterday.

I wish I could have been there.

*sigh*

Puchi!!

2009-11-19T14:56:00.001Z

A few snapshots of Puchi using my webcam.

She decided to have her mask in while talking to me on Skype. Hahahahahahaha.

And she says my timing is bad.

LOL.

*I know you absolutely love me and that I will get away with this*

Hehehe.

a week of happenings.

2009-11-18T23:05:00.003Z

It's been a hectic week so far. Crazy ass fun and lots of laughter. =) The usual.

I have to say, when I first came here, I was waiting to go back home. Don't get me wrong, I still want to go back home. But the thing is I am finally having fun being here.

I miss my family, my little doggie and my friends back in Malaysia. I really do. But I love the friends I have made here too!!!!

Studies are getting tougher but I'm trying to cope with all of it. Having fun, partying and studying. Haha.

Have a great day guys. :)

Land assignment completed.

2009-11-10T03:13:00.002Z

I spent the whole of Saturday and Sunday at home doing my Land Law assignment. Now that I have completed it, I am feeling extremely excited and I can't wait to have a night out. I need to de-stress! Haha.

I've got a couple of things lined up for tomorrow but I am unsure as to which one to go to. Also, I have the musical play practise tomorrow. Apparently I am going to learn a few new songs. :)

It's getting late. I better head to bed now.

Sleep well everyone!

=)

2009-11-08T15:32:00.001Z

I just want to say, it's been a happy day.

experiencing much conflicts of emotions at the moment but it's all good.

Rosie's 20th.

2009-11-07T11:43:00.012Z

The birthday girl :)

Well, we celebrated Rosie's 20th birthday today! Happy birthday, Rosie. The funny thing is, I didn't even know her till then but we still had fun. We met up in Raychelle's room, chatted, the girls had a few drinks and then we walked to Lloyd's before heading to Oceana. Jess's ankle started aching so she couldn't join us. John walked her home. I headed to Oceana with the girls. Awww we had fun :)

PICTURESSSSSSSS

Lucy and Olivia having a blast on the dance floor.

Bekky, Lucy, Raychelle, Olivia and Rosie waiting in line outside Oceana

Me and John in Lloyd's

Rosie and me

Jess and Bekky

Jess and Bekky again

Oli, Lucy and Rach

Me and Jess :)

Hahaha I have no idea what this is =)

Saraaaaaa!

I'm squished LOL (from left:Sara, Phil, me, Mel and Welshie)

Notts =)

2009-11-06T10:11:00.003Z

Pictures from Notts :) where we had fun, got wet in the rain, lost our voices, slept in the bus and made so many new friends.

quickie.

2009-11-03T16:03:00.001Z

It's bloody freezing here :(

I'm in my room and I feel so damn cold.

I want to cuddle.. =)

I had class in the morning and tutorials after that. Am trying to study but I failed so I am going to take a nap before my next class which is at 5. Get some shut eye or my eyes will shut by themselves in European Union Law. My god is that class boring or what?!

I miss Jo Hunt!

We're having our first musical play practice today at 8 PM at Nelson Mandela. It would be fun. I have quite a number of lines to memorize so I have to work on them early.

Tata :)

happy birthday, Lynn.

2009-11-03T00:45:00.002Z

Lynn's birthday was yesterday and we celebrated with the Malaysian Students' Society Cardiff (MSSCF) before we started our weekly meeting.

Today was the official celebration organised by the birthday girl herself. We had dinner at MANGO. It's a Mediterranean and Mexican bar. The food was good. It was a very diverse crowd and initially, people stayed in their own 'clicks' but after a while, everyone was mixing around and the noise level started to increase. :)

There were so many international students and they are just so much fun. They're really nice and friendly. We're invited to a party this Friday (which means I have to study before that to make up for the time that I would be spending there).

I've been doing quite a good job at keeping myself busy. I think I'd better turn in now because I have an extremely long day tomorrow. Actually, tomorrow is the worst day of the week for me. So many classes and a tutorial. I love Mondays because I have a maximum of two classes and then I am done.

Good night everyone. :)

a mismatched update of all sorts :)

2009-11-01T23:54:00.003Z

Sometimes when things do not go right, I think to myself, what I would not give to be back home. Please do not get me wrong. Cardiff is beautiful and I am having loads of fun here. It's just...there is no place like home. Absolutely none. I miss Malaysia. I miss Taiping. I miss Brickfields Asia College. Going there has been one of the best decisions I have made. The people I have met are amazing and the lecturers are the bomb.

Halloween here was so awesome!!!!! I had so much fun. Especially since I have never celebrated Halloween before. I attended the ERASMUS Halloween party in FatCats. The people were crazy, dressed up for the night and everyone had fun. At least, I know I did. :) I reached home around 3.15 and then studied for tutorials the next day. When I presented, the lecturer commented on how organised and thorough my presentation was. He also said he was pleased I had included many examples to illustrate my points. Hahahaha. Little did he know, I only prepared for it 20 minutes before the class. I am NOT going to do it again!! (if Kim is reading this, she would probably say, 'typical Lei')

We went to Nottingham for the Nottingham Games 2009. It was great! The organisation was poor in some aspects but really good in others. I hope to improve on this for the Cardiff European Games 2010 which will be held next March, organised by Malaysian Students' Society Cardiff (MSSCF).

I played badminton and got thrashed in the quarter finals 21-6 *blushes in embarrassment* I'm sorry, guys. I was outplayed. She was too good. I will try harder if there is a next time. Hehe.

Wai Lim was our best player for Badminton, I would say. He played so many matches in a row. Doubles and singles. Wow. You have to admire his strength and stamina. He is still young and will only improve with time.

I gave Rose a surprise call from UK because I met someone from Turkey too! :) She sounded pleased to hear from me (which is a good thing) and we spoke for a bit. I don't think I realised how much I actually did miss her considering the fact that we hardly spent time together. We just..'clicked'. :)

I miss everyone back home!!! Sometimes I secretly fear that I would only be a distant memory to them and when I get back home, they would just be hi-bye friends. *dramatically cries out "NO......."*

I think I better get going now. I have to prepare for Company tutorial now. I wish Demetra was my tutor as well, not just my lecturer. Hahaha. It would make it so much easier for me to get out of bed for an early morning class. I seem to have no problems doing so when I have Company lectures at 9 AM.

Take care and have a great start to the week!

moving??!!!!!!!!! :)(:

2009-10-22T12:24:00.004+01:00

I'm moving to ABERDARE HALL, people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As you can see, I am extremely excited! Haha. I've been waiting to move there especially since last week. It's tough being so far away from all my friends and now, I'm moving right there with them. Thank god! :)

One observation caught my attention. I've barely known these people for a month and yet, so many are ecstatic about me moving. It gives me that warm and fuzzy feeling inside. *grins*

I mean, seriously, they have come up to me when I was walking to Aberdare and then to Talybont and wished me congratulations. Yes, the whole world knows because I publicly announced it on facebook but that's besides the point! They were excited. They were happy for me.

People say the friends you make in University are forever. Well, for me, I have friends whom I have known since I was in preschool right up to now. How many people can say that? ;) Well, my bunch of friends can. Haha. And I think that we meet all kinds of people on the way to where we are now. Some good, some bad. But all have affected our lives in some way or another.

Right now, I have doubled the happiness because one, I've finally got a move to Aberdare and two, I have so many friends who are happy for me.

This is all coming at just the right time. I've been feeling really down the past 2 weeks and am slowly picking up the pieces. At least I know that I am not going to do it alone.

Thank, guys.

*group hug*

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2009-10-14T23:19:00.000+01:00

All I want is just to feel better.

Please...

It really hurts.

bye bye, everything.

2009-10-14T14:57:00.006+01:00

Lately, things haven't been looking too bright. Well, maybe not lately. More like the past three days.

It's like...when you climb a very high mountain and right in front of you, there's a beautiful rainbow and the light breeze blows gently, caressing your face. All of a sudden, the storm comes and before you know it, you're drenched. If that wasn't bad enough, you get struck by lightning and it all happens in a flash, you're burnt before you know it.

Honestly, for those who hate me, do rejoice as I am really, really sad. Hurt beyond words. Confused and weak. If you've wanted to see me hurt, you can look at me now. That would definitely make you happy.

I wish I was stronger but I do not know how to fight this feeling. I just want to curl up in a bed and sleep and not wake up. Not till I feel better and this feeling goes away.

I feel exactly like how I should feel.

I feel like someone has just snatched away my everything.

perasaan dan keputusan

2009-10-12T19:03:00.003+01:00

kadang kala kita akan menempuh saat-saat pabila perasaan menjadi tidak tentu.

kita merasa keliru.

pelbagai persoalan akan timbul dan kita meraba dalam kegelapan untuk mencari jawapan.

tahukah anda perasaan itu?

pernahkah itu terjadi kepada anda?

walaupun pada sy, jawapan itu senang untuk dicari, perasaan bukan sesuatu yang mudah untuk diramal.

manusia, sy percaya, dilahirkan dengan perasaan mementingkan diri. terutama dalam hal kasih sayang.

mungkin inilah yang menyukarkan kita apabila kita hendak membuat keputusan.

tapi, itu bukan alasan apabila perasaan pihak lain terganggu and keliru. tidak adil untuk membiarkan orang lain tertunggu-tunggu dan gelisah.

dalam hidup ini, ada perkara yang amat kelabu tetapi ada yang amat nyata juga.

ambil keputusan bukan hanya berdasarkan kehendak hati sendiri, tetapi juga untuk orang lain yang turut terjejas.

my BM sucks now.omg.

sometimes..

2009-10-07T15:12:00.000+01:00

...I just can't seem to do things right.

Two weeks in Cardiff.

2009-10-04T14:54:00.004+01:00

It's been exactly two weeks since I've arrived in Cardiff. What can I say? I love this place. The weather is a lil' too cold for me but I think I'll adjust to it soon enough.

I've caught the Fresher's flu!! Oh nooooooooo..... :) Almost everyone's sick now. Haha. Must be the weather.

Well, so far, I have had a great time here. Classes started last week and they were okay. I am taking five subjects this year so it'll be madness. Hopefully I settle down soon enough and hit the books with more vigour and interest than I have shown so far. Hehe.

I hope to get better soon. I don't really like being sick here. My hamster's not here to take care of me. Too far away. My friends have been so sweet. On Friday, Ambiga, Danielle and Tiffany actually made porridge and hot green tea and walked all the way to Talybont (which is where I am staying) to pass it to me. I am so lucky, I swear.

I've met loads of nice people here. I guess that has really helped made my stay much better. Right now, my focus is doing well in my exams. I've got the support. Now it's all up to me. I'm missing everyone in Malaysia. Loads. But I will be seeing them all very soon.

I got to get going now. I'm going to get dressed and head to Aberdare to have light lunch. We're having Raya celebration today. It's organised by the Malaysian's Student's Society Cardiff. They're awesome!!!

Take care everyone. Love to all. Have a great day!!

food.. :)

2009-09-29T16:46:00.004+01:00

Since I've been here, I have been cooking a lot. Just the other day, I cooked pork curry. Mind you, before coming here I had no clue how to cook curry! Hahaha and yesterday for dinner, I cooked roast masala chicken and had it with chicken rice. It was really good.

No, this is not self-praise!!! I really am finally learning how to cook well. People actually say that I can cook so I'm now very proud of myself. :)

I have class in a while so I have to go. Living in Cardiff isn't that bad. In fact, I'm actually having fun. Pictures are coming up once I don't feel so lazy. Hehe.

Missing everyone in Malaysia.

hmph.

2009-09-24T23:08:00.002+01:00

I was walking and had to stop at a traffic light.

Someone beside me asked what I was studying and I said LAW. Then she asked me if I was a whiz kid.

I asked her why.

Her reply?

"Cuz you're only 15 and you're already studying law."

.............

>.<"

the filling of empty spaces :)

2009-08-30T07:24:00.003+01:00

What has happened from the last time I had a proper post? To be honest, I cannot remember. Haha. Here are the updates in no particular order. I'm just typing as they come to mind.

My friends had a birthday party gathering for me in Asia Cafe and I had a blast. It was fun and I only got home at around 2. We stayed and played pool. I'm not good at it at all but hey, it's fun!

I went out with Kak Enaz, Azah and their friends and again, I had much fun. Stayed over at their place, went to Cyberjaya the next day with them and after that, headed home.

I got my heart broken on the 20th of July.

I had amazing birthday gifts this year that I'm bloody elated. :)

I've been working in my college for the three months that I've had off since the end of my exams and yesterday was my last day. It was an experience I would not forget anytime soon.

I've become hooked to the game Mafia Wars on Facebook.

I did well in my first year of LLB. I'm proud of myself and I thank all those who have helped me along the way.

I'd like to congratulate my friends who have done well in the UOL exams. To those who did not, it's okay. Try harder next time and please do not give up.

My best friend Su Lin has left to the USA to further her studies. Yen and I barely made it to the airport and we spent less than 5 minutes before she had to leave. I love you and I miss you, OOI SU LIN!

I attended Lali's farewell party yesterday in Kepong. She's off to the USA too! :) Good luck darling. I'm sure you'll ace whatever it is you're doing. Hahaha.

I've now cycled about half of Damansara Heights with Aria. (no, I've not lost weight because I was so busy stuffing my face)

I got H1N1 and survived :)

I'm bahagia and I think I will be for a long, long time more.

I've realised how important my friends are to me.

I'm having so much fun in Malaysia. Especially the last few months that I am going to be here.

My parents threw a farewell party for me and my cousin brother who has left to USA (again). Ari drove down just for that and Puchi followed him. So sweeeeeeeet!!! *hugs*

I had so much fun with my cousins that I wish the night wouldn't end. Guess what? It didn't. I drove my cousins to Siang Malam for supper and we sat and talked and laughed till my dad and uncle and male cousins decided to crash our party :) We then went back to our room and woke up early for amazing breakfast in Cheap N Nice.

I have a cousin who is currently roaming around South America on her own and from what I hear, she's having a blast. Haha.

I now know I'm going to miss my grandma sooooooo much. :(

I'm not too bad at badminton now thanks to all the Thurdays at Kuan Cheng with the gang.

I went on a Cardiff Freshers camp organised by our seniors who already studying there and I had so much fun. I came back with cuts and bruises for souvenirs but everytime I think about that trip, I smile to myself because I made so many friends and met all them nice people.

I've done more shopping in these three months than I have had in three years.

Guess what? I have more shopping to do! Hahahahahaha.

I received my official acceptance email from Cardiff yesterday morning and I was elated.

I think that pretty much sums things up. If I have missed anything, I will update it in my next post okay? I'm sitting in the office working on this post. Haha. It's a Sunday! Gosh, I'm lifeless. I'm having so much fun I can't imagine how it's going to be when I have to leave.

Till the next post, take care everyone!

...

2009-08-26T10:24:00.000+01:00

Puchi blogs more than I do now.

Hmmm....

an outing with the Puchi and Aria.

2009-08-13T10:09:00.005+01:00

Since Kim-puchi helped me with my blog head and I like it, I've decided to come back to blogging!

I'm feeling sick in the tummy from an overdose of chocolate. It was an interesting day today. Went to the Butterfly Park with the Puchi a.k.a Kim (who from hereon will be known as the Puchi). I had fun. It is RM8 for Malaysian Citizens under the "Cuti-cuti Malaysia" package.

There weren't that many butterflies and some were so restless that Puchi had a hard time taking pictures of them. In the end, she managed to get a few. Knowing Puchi's 'exceptional' observation skills, she missed so many butterlies! Even ones right in front of her eyes. *smacks forehead* Haiyo, this Puchi I tell you. So now I know why she dragged me along for this 'take-pictures-of-butterflies excursion. She's missing so many! Ish ish ish.

I took a few pictures too with Puchi's DSLR. Hehe the camera must be really good because the pictures turned out really nice. After that, we went to pick Aria up and went for lunch at Chillies. Puchi and I had Southwestern Grilled Lamb (which, mind you, was awesome.) He had some chicken burger thingie (sorry, I'm having a memory lapse and I can't seem to recall what is the name of that dish). Chillies has a new menu and I think it looks impressive. The food at Chillies Bangsar and Midvally never fail to disappoint though the outlet in Midvally is my favorite because me and a certain someone are a regular there. :))

Anyways, on the way back we got ourselves Theo Bromas. It is awesome. They have outlets in Bangsar, One Utama, Pavillion and Sunway if I'm not mistaken. You should so try!!!!!!! It is AMAZING.

Now I'm on the second floor doing my Contract textbook. I'm feeling a lil' sick from too much chocolate and sugar. Haha. We've got badminton later tonight and I'm looking forward to it.

Take care and have a good day, guys.

hiatus.

2009-07-04T15:09:00.002+01:00

I'm going on a hiatus.

BYE.

:)

2009-06-11T05:29:00.002+01:00

The things I remember most about being in love, is the joy that lasted for a while, the smiles, the way you held me, and all the tears I cried.

I still love you with every broken piece of my heart.

I’m still wondering why you took it, then tore it apart.

I wonder what I did wrong, that made you let me go so easily.

I’m still hoping that one day, you will let me know…

Who says time heals?! You don’t get OVER the pain, you just learn to get ALONG with the pain, in time."

of the French Open.

2009-06-09T06:59:00.003+01:00

and the world mourns the day an unworthy winner now holds the Roland Garros trophy.

r.i.p to entertaining tennis.

the final was so entertaining that I...........
*yawns*

oh is it the next day now? wow.

hello.beat the king on his surface with him playing his best tennis.like how he beat you in Wimbledon when you were playing yours.till then, you will never be the best ever.NEVER.

=)

=)

2009-06-05T06:56:00.000+01:00

kebahagiaan tak menimpa sebarang orang

kerana ia bukan sebarang perasaan.

- leithiga

ke hari itu.

2009-06-03T04:37:00.000+01:00

It's June. That day is coming soon.

Oh boy, I can't wait!!!

:D

Excited, happy...mixed emotions.

*sigh*

Bersama kita menuju tangga kebahagiaan.

short notes.

2009-06-03T04:25:00.002+01:00

Missing someone badly.

Many people's birthdays coming up.

One special occasion coming soon. (:D)

Trips with friends.

Nadal losing.

How now?

:(

screwed up.

2009-05-31T17:27:00.001+01:00

WTH man?!!!

How could this possibly happen?

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

*wails and pulls hair*

Nadal is not supposed to lose. What the hell happened???

*sigh*

This is really not the best start to my day.

No, seriously.

*growls*

x x x x x x x x x x x

I'm gonna turn in tonight and pretend as if nothing as horrifying as that tragedy occurred.
NO.
Nothing happened.

Good night.

of many firsts.

2009-05-24T15:37:00.004+01:00

It has been a week of many firsts for me.

my car reached 15 000 km :)
I went clubbing for the first time ever (not as awesome as people claim it to be)
first week of freedom after 9 months of first year law
my blog had reached its 501th post

So yea. :)) It has been great so far. I've been catching up on my sleep which I have been deprived of since a month before the exams. It is a great relief that my finals are over.

Well, that's it for now. I'm going to catch up on my reading. The standard of my English has dropped to an unacceptable one so I need to brush up and improve.

Chao. =)

a summary of the recent happenings.

2009-05-21T19:21:00.004+01:00

Finally, after almost 9 months of studying, fun and classes, LLB Intermediate is over. It is a mixture of happiness and sadness. There was much laughter throughout the duration. Not much pain. It has been a most wonderful time for me and I have clearly enjoyed myself.

Yes, there were moments where I hated it but right now, I can only think of the happy moments and I wish for it to remain that way. I have learnt so much, made new friends, kept the old, found love in places I never thought I would.

In short, I had a great time.

My papers were relatively okay and the only problem was the time constraint. I suppose what is done is done. I did the best I could and the rest is up to God. :)

xx xx xx xx

Thinking of going to the temple some time soon. Hopefully I can get a group to go with me. Would be great, actually. I love going to the temple. I am not a religious person but I find the temple a very calm and serene place.

I hope I get a job soon. I need one. I want to party and to do so, I need some serious cash which my parents will not part with thus I have to find my own resources. Haha. No, I am not going to work in a firm and I will try and avoid call center jobs as well. The hours are crap and the pay is nothing to shout about.

I will be giving tuition, though so those interested can email me at babylei_07@yahoo.com. For a levels I give for Business Studies, ELS and Contract Law whereas for SPM and below I give English tuition classes.

peace bro, lei's studying in the library!

2009-05-01T06:15:00.003+01:00

So, I'm in the library.

So, I'm supposed to be studying.

Well, technically I was.

Then public managed to bore me to the brink of suicide and I decided enough is enough. Not to worry, I will hit the books in a while. :)

Studying in the library on a public holiday (Labour Day) is awesome. The library is so damn quiet because there's hardly anyone around. WOW.

Facebook is getting better these days. Not as horrid as it was. I hope the influx of wanabes does not happen here as it did to Friendster (which, mind you, signalled the death of Friendster for me).

Public is not as bad as I initially thought it was. I'm still getting a grasp of it. Hopefully I will do so before my exams. I'm torn between having exams over and done with and the fact that I may not be able to see some people as often as I would like to.

Hmph.

I shall let that question be. I got to go back to studying now. Lazing too much. Have to do well. Chao people!

Happy Labour Day! :)

i'm attached.

2009-04-26T15:50:00.002+01:00

Lei is unusually attached to Smelly Pillow.

to the humans of the world.

2009-04-26T15:38:00.003+01:00

Hello humans of the world!

How has it been going for you? :)

Great, I hope.

Everythings looking up for me so far. All I need now is to score in my exams and the final piece of my life is fixed. I'm happy. I'd be lying if i said there were glitches here and there but hey, they've remained merely glitches so I'm thankful.

Kebahagiaan is here, love is here, education I have to work hard for, money I have to earn.

What more can a girl ask for?

I cannot deny that I am really seriously freaked out about my exams. You want to know how freaked out I am? I actually sat down and wrote essays.

Yes, I did. Leithiga did that! OMG!

*shakes head in amazement*

Haih that's enough of ranting for now. I have to get back to my essay. I want to do one more before I sleep. I have an early day tomorrow which starts at 4 a.m. so wish me luck!

Have a great week everyone.

And I hope I have a great one too.

kabooommmm

2009-04-19T16:59:00.001+01:00

Up...

Down..

Fly fly high...

*kabooommm* and it crashes down..

And now we slowly make our way back up again.

:)

i'll be climbing my mountain.

2009-04-07T16:49:00.002+01:00

We are in the process of climbing this incredibly high mountain and the track is treacherous.

But still, we climb.

Yes, we falter at times.

Yes, we feel like giving up.

Yes, sometimes we think if it is worth it.

Yes, once in a while we turn back and give up but it doesn't last long and we find ourselves making our way back to the top again.

That's because we know that the climb is worth it. And also the fact that we refuse to say that the mountain got the better of us.

I don't know about you guys but I'm still climbing. When I do reach the top, I'll scream out loud to the whole world.

Wish me luck! :))

irritating betul!

2009-04-07T16:08:00.002+01:00

I'm applying to foreign universities while I'm typing this. The website is so bloody slow man. *pulls hair* Geram aku!

Hopefully I get what I want and I'll be able to achieve my dream, make everyone happy, make you proud and I am free to do what I want.

Some person is being damn freaking annoying. Thinks that the whole world has it easy and she is the only one going through shit when she doesn't realise that what she is going through is nothing compared to some people. She doesn't know the meaning of hardship.
She freaking screwed up her life when she was given a chance so why is she blaming other people? She's set in her mind that everything is going to be hard so of course it will be! Her idea of fun is boys, shopping and fashion. Come on. Grow up man. See the world. Life is so much more than that. The world is bigger than you are.

That's it. I'm done ranting :) She's not worth the time or energy. Sorry bro. You're not that important after all. I don't care that much about you after all. Hahahaha. I feel satisfaction. *smiles gleefully*